The Unbreakable Vow

An Unbreakable Vow is a magical incantation in which one wizard makes an oath to another. If the person who accepts the conditions of the Unbreakable Vow breaks them, they die. The spell involves the two wizards joining their hands, and a third person, designated as a "Bonder", placing the tip of their wand onto their hands, upon which one person asks another person three separated terms of the Vow, where the person will respond "I will". Upon assent with each clause of an Unbreakable Vow, a thick tongue of fire winds around the linked hands.

Kailangan natin to. Hahahaha!

Maghintay

May natanggap akong balita. After 2 years, baka makapunta nako sa USA. Actually pinoproseso pa lang yung visa ko pero 2 years? Onting hintayan na lang yun. Kung magkataon, magkikita kami nung kaibigan ko na aalis this August pag nagmigrate nako. Shala! Di ko maexplain kung ano ang dapat maramdaman.

Patience is a virtue.

(Blank)

"We all have this one particular person that got away"

-- Dom "jetlog" Lasquety

Tama sya. Ewan ko kung bakit.

Rigid training. Manpower.

Ayun another "thought" that I have to pour.

Naah. Nevermind.

4 days of tranquility

Hay Lord! Thanks po sa apat na araw na break nyo para sa akin

Day 1:

Nagtraining ang mga potentials namin sa AKADEME. Nagjudge ako sa isa nilang activity ta umuwi din agad. Then naghanda na ako sa aki bakasyon.....

Day2-4: Boracay

Sunday morning, hinanda ko na ang mga dadalhin ko para sa aming Boracay vacation. So from Manila-Kalibo ang flight namin. Then car ride to Tabon port, grabe isa't-kalahating oras ang byahe. Parang from our house to Bulacan ang layo. super! Tas boat ride from port to Bora then Tricycle hanggang sa station namin. Pagdating namin sa kwarto namin, biglang bihis agad tas nagswim na. Hahaha! Grabe, kung alam nyo lang kung gaano kaganda sa Bora. Walang masyadong tao. Di madumi. Basta ang ganda swear!

Actually tinatamad nako magtype. yaan nyo, kwento ko yung iba sa next post/s ko. oryt bitches? Thanks

Maybe

Dahil sa mga nangyayari sakin. Napagtanto ko, I'm gonna be a old spinster. Swear. How did I conclude that my path will lead there?

1) Wala akong bf
2) Too busy with school stuff
3) I wanna be rich. Filthy rich
4) Di ako nagaayos
5) My life is a mess
6) No guy would see me in different light
7) I don't know how to flirt
8) Self-confessed Gay, straight, bi and transgender lover (ok, that's lame)
9) I don't see the "fun" in having a relationship
10) Most of all. I'm afraid that one day, I'll be too attached with that "guy", it is hard to let him go

I'm currently listening to "The one that got away"

Me will have a 4-day vacay with my love ones. It'll be a blast.

Now, brewing up some Plank poses

Biyaheng Sikmura

Ngayon, pinapanuod ko yung docu ni Kara David sa I-witness. About sa mga taong kalye. Grabe, as in kung ano lang makita nila na edible, kakainin nila o di kaya gagawa sila ng diskarte para lang makaraos sa maghapon.

Ngayon napapaisip ako. I'm so lucky na kaya kong kumain without making so much effort. Maswerte ako dahil may bahay akong tinutuluyan. nakakapasok sa magandang school. Di ako ulila.

Ngayon, matututo na akong magpahalaga sa mga bagay bagay

Trip to your heart

Spread my wings all into the dawn
I'll fly away on a trip to your heart
Break this chains that keep us apart
I'll fly away on a trip to your heart

Daming nagtatanong kung bakit wala pa akong BF. Simple lang naman sagot ko eh, walang nagkakamali at walang magkakamali.

Maybe di pa ako ready. Saka na pag mayaman at ako na ang boss nina Lucio Tan at Henry Sy at humahabol pa sa akin ang mga Cojuanco, Ayala de Zobel at Gokongwei.

Haha!

Super Stress is on his way.

talagang di ako makapangako ng matino sa sarili ko. Sabi ko nun lie-low ako sa AKADEME pero all of a sudden, ako na ang Logistics officer ng party namin.

So sa mga trip akong tulungan, I would gladly accept your help. Sa mga hindi at gusto akong pahirapan dahil bitch/asshole ka, eto sayo t("-). Haha! Makonsensya ka. Haha!

Yan muna.

"sa AKADEME AKADEME tayo"

The story of us.

I really love that song. May naaalala lang kasi ako dun eh.

"simple complication, miscommunication"

Pagpasensyahan nyo na ako if I'm having nostalgia here in my latest post. I swear this will be the last (hopefully) blog about the past experience in love. Now, shall I start?

Di pa rin sya maalis sa isip ko. Ang hirap palang magbura ng feelings sa isang tao na pinaglaanan mo. Don't worry, di ako manunumbat. Wahaha! I'm sure sa sarili ko na wala na pero alam mo yung feeling na nakakamiss dahil gusto mong bumalik sa nakaraan tas ulitin lahat. Parang you want to feel again the energy between you and that particular person. Again as I said, wala na po talaga akong nararamdaman. SWEAR TO WEAR. Maybe I just miss him that much. :|. I know that he's happy. Ngayon pa, mabubuo na pamilya nya. I just wish him all the best. Anyway he is still my friend. Yun nga nakakatuwa sa amin eh. Andami ng dumaang problema samin but still magkaibigan pa rin turingan namin. Ok na ako dun. I just can't help thinking na pano kung di ako sa kanya nainlove. Pano kung di ako naging one sided nun. Putanginang What If's yan. Bummer ka sa buhay.

So sana mabasa mo to. I know di na tayo madalas magkita pero ito lang ang pakatatandaan mo. Ako pa rin ang kaibigan mong tumutulong sayo nung nalelate ka at hinahanap ka sa akin ng mga prof nun. Wahahahaha!

So ayan. Nalabas ko dun. Medyo nilimit ko pa. Haha!

Flu? OO

Wow, salamat naman at binigyan nyo pa ako ng isang araw na pahinga pero bakit ngayon pa? Busy ako!

Kasi kanina pa lang umaga, di na maganda pakiramdam ko pero pumasok pa rin ako. Nung nagkaclass na kami kay Ma'am Pineda, panay ang ubo ko. Kala siguro no maam may TB na ako. pffffft. Tas nung 1st break ko na, medyo umayos kasi nakapgpahinga ako. Eh dagil sa BDAY ngayon ni DOM, sinupresa namin. Edi ang likot likot ko no. Tas nung 3rd class ko na, FUCK! Ubo ako ng ubo. tumutulo sipon ko. Masakit ang ulo ko. Namamaos pa ako. Oh? San ka pa? So pagdating sa MISS, blagag! Tumba si atashi. Tas I decided na wag munang pumasok sa Math 13 dahil di rin naman ako nakakapagfocus kasi nga MASAMA ANG PAKIRAMDAM KO. So yun. Eto ako ngayon. Nagsheshare ng nangyayari sakin ngayon.

Damn, I feel awful. :|

Pseudo Relationship

The "parang kayo, pero hindi" stage. Others call it MU or mutual understanding. Pseudo-relationships. Pseudo-boyfriends. Flings. Almost like a relationship, but not quite. It is a phase where the persons involved are more than friends, but not quite lovers. Puwedeng may verbal agreement, puwedeng wala. One or both of you may have admitted your feelings, possible ding hindi. You just let your gestures do the talking for you. Walang pormal na ligawan na nangyari. Hindi kayo mag-dyowa. Pero sa kilos niyo, sa mga sinasabi niyo, parang kayo, pero hindi.

This kind of "relationship" can happen at different stages for different reasons. It can happen after a break-up. You still love each other, and you want to be with each other but you broke up for a reason. And for reasons that you alone know, ayaw niyo na muna magkabalikan.

It can also happen before a relationship, iyong pareho kayong nakikiramdam. Possible din na ayaw niyo munang mag-seryoso kaya kunwa-kunwarian lang muna. Testing lang. Puwede ring hindi puwedeng maging kayo kasi isa sa inyo may ka-relasyon na. Kaya habang hindi pa siya nakikipag-break doon(sabi niya makikipag-break siya soon pero di naman niya ginagawa), wala muna kayong relasyon para nga naman hindi siya nangangaliwa
kasi "hindi naman kayo."

This pseudo-relationship stage, for a time, can be fun. Lalo na kung naghahanap ka lang naman ng "kalaro." Pero huwag ka lang mag-e-expect na
may patutunguhan kayo kasi wala talagang kasiguraduhan.

So bakit ang daming nagse-settle sa ganitong setup ganoong hindi naman sigurado kung may patutunguhan?

Iba't ibang dahilan. Puwedeng for fun lang. Puwedeng "buti na iyan kesa wala" or puwede na iyang "pantawid-gutom." Meaning, habang wala pa iyong the real thing, doon muna sa kunwa-kunwarian.

For those who are not in a serious relationship, they would think that pseudo-relationship is better than no relationship at all. It would be fun, if all you are after for is that "kilig" feeling.

Mostly, ang rationalization ng mga napasok dito, "okay na iyun, kesa wala."

Aminado naman ako na once upon a time, may mga pseudo-relationships din ako. No commitments involved. For the simplest reason that they couldn't commit, because they were either committed to someone else, or that they weren't ready to commit.

Ang maganda doon, iyong kilig feeling. Iyong merong nagtatanong kung kumusta araw ko. Iyong merong ka-cuddle sa beach outing. Iyong kapag tumunog ang cellphone, mapapangiti na ako dahil alam kong galing sa kanya ang message. Iyong merong laging kasama. Habang wala pa ang the real thing, puwede na itong pagtiyagaan.

But then I learned that although it was only a pseudo-relationship, the emotions were real. And usually, in this kind of set up, ang nagmamahal ang lugi.

Una, you can't ask siya to commit. Since it's not really a relationship, you can't demand commitment from your partner. Ano ba kayo? May K ka nga ba magpasundo or mangsundo ng hatinggabi? You will always be uncertain about your role in his life. You can't expect him to be always there with you. And if you feel jealous of the others, you just have to keep it to yourself. Ano ka ba niya para magselos?

Pangalawa, what if you fall deeply in love with him/her? You can't be sure if he feels the same way. Baka nag-a-assume ka lang na mahal ka rin niya. Even if you are dying to tell him/her you love him/her, you can't. Because you're not sure if s/he'll like it. Baka mapahiya ka lang. This stage will always make you wonder where you are in the relationship. Or if there is a relationship at all.

Pangatlo, what if you become attached too much? What if you have invested all your emotions and that someone hasn't? What if you remain faithful to him/her, not entertaining others, only to find out that s/he is seeing other girls or boys?

Isa pang downside ng pseudo-relationships, it is fleeting. When a disagreement sets in, or when one of you gets cold, then that would be the end of it. Unlike in a serious relationship, hindi mo alam kung saan ka lulugar sa isang pseudo-relationship. Wala kang pinanghahawakan. Kasi sa pseudo-relationship, there is no "us." Meron lang "you and me," hindi "us."

Buti sana kung pseudo-pain din lang ang mararanasan mo. Kaso, hindi eh. Real pain. And usually, kahit tapos na ang pseudo-relationship, hindi mo maiwasan umasang one day, may karugtong pa rin iyun. And you will be miserable, hoping to bring back what you used to have, only to find out eventually that that someone is in another pseudo-relationship with somebody else.

Ang hirap, ano? You agreed to this kind of set up and then you'd end up hurting yourself in the process.

Pero puwede naman maiwasan ang pain eh. Puwede naman na hindi mo muna isipin ang future and just enjoy the feeling, without thinking of the consequences.

But if you are certain that you are going to hurt yourself in the process, kailangan mo mamili. You can be happy and live the moment without worrying what would happen next. Or you can stop settling with pseudo-relationships and wait for the real thing.

When I was younger and in a pseudo-relationship with an unavailable girl, a friend told me, "Sige, kung ayaw mong magpapigil, bahala ka. Magpakasaya ka. Pero huwag kang iiyak-iyak pagkatapos, dahil tatadyakan kita."

Ang bottom line lang naman, kung magpapasaya sa iyo, gawin mo. Ihanda mo lang ang sarili mo sa consequence. Dahil ang "parang kayo pero hindi" stage ay bihirang nagiging totoo. Usually, hanggang doon lang siya almost, but not quite.

-- copy paste lang yan. Ako na ang dakilang tamad. well kaya ko to naalala kasi last year eh akala ko ganto na kami ni (what name will I give him?). Don't worry, kaibigan ko pa rin sya. Ako na assuming palagi. Tsk. Wahahaha! well sana makatulong sayo tong pinost ko.

Just a thought: wag kang magmalinis. Kala mo kasi santa/santo ka eh. poor you.

Di ko alam kung pano ko to sisimulan...

Ganto kasi yun, inaya ko si Kavin na manuod ng Transformers 3. Pumayag si gago. Akala nya di ako seryoso nun. BIG WTF. Tanga talaga. So ang ending nag-usap kami tas nung kakain na kami, pinasukan namin yung Perfect Moments. He ordered PAVLOVA tas I ordered Choco loaf and Morinnga Citrus Cooler. Epic fail yung Pavlova nya. Merengue lang pala yun na may fruits. hahaha! Tas naiwan pa nya payong nya. Hala ka kay Mama Glee. Lagot....

Tas naglakad kami from Marquinton hanggang Concepcion. Grabe daldalan lang kami ng daldalan. Iba talaga pag si Kavin ang kasama ko. Nawawala ang Migraine ko. Salamat sir. :*

"batang bata ka pa, pero pwede ka na....."

Ang manyak!